I recently was thinking about how sometimes being a pedophile feels weird. It’s like I have to live a double life. I’m part of normie forums and groups, and in those groups, I’m not a “pedophile.” I’m “me” but not truly “me!” I can never (and would never) talk about my trials and tribulations in relation to my orientation. I can’t even mention my orientation. Whenever I see people bring up their (socially accepted) orientation or dating experience, it makes me envious.

It almost feels surreal how in one instance I can be a pedophile and in another instance I tolerate being around people that despise people like me. I could only imagine how’d they feel essentially if they knew I was an “unrepentant” pedophile. I mean, I’m probably considered one of the worst kinds of pedophiles, second only to sexually active pedophiles and child porn consumers.