I won’t be doing something for every day of MAP rememberance but for this subject it really spoke to me. You see, I seem to have some strange affinity for self-loathing adolescent MAPs who are just beginning to discover their attractions. I think it’s because I felt that way when I was a tween first…
Author: Mei
Visual Insights: Exploring Minor Attraction Through Engaging Videos
I want to share this great video created by a non-MAP. It’s well researched however there are some problematic framings and terms used in the video essay. The Youtuber also has an interview. The person interviewing them is a MAP themselves. You should check out the rest of his channel. He interviews other people related…
Adults, Children, and Misopedia: Dissecting Ignorance
I hate how some people even consider it weird and suspicious for an adult to prefer the company of children. I came across this comment and it just infuriated me. This part really stood out “I have 2 of my own now and told them the other day that if an adult wants to hang…
Separate Lives
I recently was thinking about how sometimes being a pedophile feels weird. It’s like I have to live a double life. I’m part of normie forums and groups, and in those groups, I’m not a “pedophile.” I’m “me” but not truly “me!” I can never (and would never) talk about my trials and tribulations in relation to my orientation. I can’t even mention my orientation. Whenever I see people bring up their (socially accepted) orientation or dating experience, it makes me envious.
It almost feels surreal how in one instance I can be a pedophile and in another instance I tolerate being around people that despise people like me. I could only imagine how’d they feel essentially if they knew I was an “unrepentant” pedophile. I mean, I’m probably considered one of the worst kinds of pedophiles, second only to sexually active pedophiles and child porn consumers.
“What did you think about pedophiles when you were a child?”
I don’t remember if I knew what the word pedophile was in my early childhood. The earliest memory I have of knowing about pedophiles is in the 7th grade. There was this rumor that our gym teacher was a pedophile and would perv on us kids. I remember in my 8th grade Spanish class, we were talking…