I always struggle on how I should tell this story because it is so unusual from most people’s experience, at least from my observation, yet I want, NO… I really should say… NEED to get it all out for once and all. I’ve been asked in the past how and when did I realize my orientation. In the past I got sent this question on one of those ask anonymous questions sites:
As you can see from just the quick answer I gave, there is still so much left to wonder, such as, “What do you mean you ‘rediscovered’ the MAP community?! How did you discover it the first time? And how’d you find it the second time?”
I’m here to answer those questions. I’ll start in chronological order with the shorter story.
- The First Time I Came Across the MAP Community
I’m not exactly sure what age it was when I first stumbled upon a MAP community online. I was a teenager, possible 15 or 16 years old. I had a regular Twitter account since I was 15 years old. I mingled with the nonreligious secular and “anti-feminist” and “anti-SJW” type of people on Twitter mostly at the time. One day while scrolling through Twitter I somehow ran across a MAP community, an “Anti-Contact Non-Offending” MAP community to be exact. I was shocked to see that there were pedophiles openly on Twitter. I thought they were “creepy perverts”. I remember reading this one post from a person saying they just say a “sexy 3 year old walk by”. I thought to myself, “What in the world in sexy about a 3 year old?!”, while simultaneously visualizing an attractive 3 year old walking by on the sidewalk.
I was highly disturbed by some of the things I read and saw. Nothing was illegal or explicit but just the expressed attraction to young children freaked me out. One other thing I noticed was that that community actively called out “Pro-contact” MAPs and even tweeted out studies showing the harmful effects of sexual and sensual activity between adults and children. A part of me thought those people were tryhards. Trying to show the world they weren’t one of those “bad” pedophiles. In fact in a weird way, I had more respect for the “Pro-contact” pedos because they seemed more authentic.
All in all, that experience really stuck with me. I believe it was the second time I had came across pedophiles online. I remember some time in the future when more people online started discussing the MAP community like in the “anti-SJW” community, I brought up on Twitter that anecdote of the person claiming to have seen a “sexy 3 year old”, and how mindbogglingly the idea that someone could find a 3 year old attractive was.
Edited on March 3rd 2025 for grammar.
Not to belittle your experience or anything, but nothing sounds terribly unusual to me here.
In fact, I think a story like this would be quite common if we could somehow get the MAP community a little more positive exposure.
Yes I’ve heard of other MAPs with a similar story.