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heyllo: Coming Up with a Name for My Blog

Posted on December 10, 2023July 11, 2025 by Mei

The author is embarking on a blog focused on youth orientation, fueled by a wealth of ideas and emotions. The primary challenge faced was selecting a suitable domain name for the blog. During the brainstorming process, the author recalled an obscure term for pedophiles, “kind,” which they find intriguing yet underused. The author appreciates the irony of this term, as it is commonly associated with positive phrases like “be kind,” creating a personal sense of humor about the juxtaposition. This unique perspective ultimately inspired the name of the blog, reflecting the author’s intention to explore complex themes in a light-hearted manner.

Happy IBLD| Boy Moment at Zoo

Posted on June 20, 2025June 20, 2025 by Mei

The blog post celebrates the inaugural International BoyLove Day (IBLD), a day for boylovers to unite and share their message, traditionally observed on the summer and winter solstices and the following Saturdays in June and December. The author expresses excitement for the occasion and shares a drawing of a new character, with details still in development.

In the spirit of IBLD, the author recounts two memorable experiences: one at a zoo with a shy boy who smiled and waved, and another at a dolphin show, where the author envied a mother snuggling with her son. These moments reflect the author’s appreciation for innocent interactions with children and the joy they bring.

MAP Remembrance Week: Overlooked MAP Interview

Posted on June 11, 2025June 9, 2025 by Mei

The author reflects on their participation in MAP Remembrance Week, shifting focus from self-loathing MAPs to the theme of overlooked MAPs. They share their experience of being interviewed for the Open Hearts Podcast, which addresses issues related to paraphilias and mental health, particularly concerning MAPs. The interview opportunity arose after the host discovered the author’s blog and recognized them as a MAP activist. The author expresses enthusiasm for the podcast’s mission and highlights their desire to contribute to educational discussions about pedophilia, particularly from the perspective of a female with such attractions. Although they had previously participated in an interview that was never published, they found this experience fulfilling and appreciated the chance to share their insights. The podcast episodes were initially available on All the Fallen and later moved to FSTube, with the author’s voice altered for privacy.

What I Feel Before the Event

Posted on April 29, 2025June 9, 2025 by Mei

The author shares their excitement about attending the B4U-ACT conference for the first time, which they were able to join due to last-minute cancellations. Initially unaware of the conference’s schedule, they discovered it while researching a previous paper on the B4U-ACT website. After registering, they obtained a required voucher from their therapist and received an email inviting them to an online voice chat for introductions and conference details, a standard practice for newcomers.

Alice Day Illustration

Posted on April 25, 2025June 9, 2025 by Mei

A drawing for the GirlLover pedophile holiday “Alice Day”

An Unusual Journey to Actualization: How I Discovered the MAP Community. PART 2

Posted on March 16, 2025June 9, 2025 by Mei

The author shares their journey of self-discovery regarding sexual preferences and dating during their teenage years. Initially identifying as a teleiophile, they experienced disinterest in dating and sex, shaped by a close friend’s conservative views, which fostered a sex-negative perspective and aversion to peers’ sexual behaviors. Throughout adolescence, the author grappled with conflicting feelings about sexuality, feeling shame while also believing minors could consent to adult relationships. This internal conflict reflects the complexity of their moral views and desire to preserve childhood innocence, ultimately deepening their understanding of their identity and preferences.